OK, I checked other blogs. Many intersting, people have something to say. And I gave up justifying why I have a blog. But why this one. See the guy in the picture? My husband. Two and a half years married and two children. And I hate him and I dislike the life I have with him. And when I don't I'm just waiting, fishing for reasons to hate him and dislike our life together. I can make his life a nightmaire and I do it often. So he hates me quite often too and dislikes our life together. Which is a big reason for me to hate him and dislike our life together. He is handsome, he is succesful and the perfect husband, does everything he is supposed to do and even more. On a list with the qualities and things a husband should do I would check all the points. This is him. But still I'm unhappy most of the time and when I'm not I'm waiting to be. I like him, I'm attracted by him as I was first day but I hate our life together. This is not what I wanted and I feel cheated. And I can't give in. And I know I can't change anything. I'm in a trap.